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Today I become an (old) man

Today's my 24th birthday.

I'm officially in my mid-twenties. It's all down hill now.

Life has changed a lot in the last year and a half, and for once in my life I think I've handled it pretty well. I've always been resistant to change, I guess that's part of my pessimistic nature. Even if times were tough, I still would be fearful of the changes the future would be. I'd rather stuff stay bad than possibly get better, because there was also the chance that things could get even worse. But lately I've been able to get passed things a lot more easily, to move on and try to get through to the good things.

In the last 18 months I've gone on countless interviews, been rejected by all of those jobs, graduated from college, moved to San Marcos, became a teacher, became a football coach, quit coaching, started hating teaching, tendered a resignation, gone on countless more interviews, actually received job offers from two of those, moved to Dallas, and started a new job.

Somewhere along the way I grew up.

A year ago when I got bad news about a job I would get really down on myself and would stop looking for other jobs. I'd rather be unemployed because I was lazy than because no one wanted me. That's how I became a teacher. (Isn't that how everyone becomes a teacher? Those who can't do, teach. Those who can't teach, teach gym.) But this time around, when I got rejected I didn't let it get to me. Yeah it sucked to not get the job, but I kept applying to more jobs knowing that I needed and wanted to move on to something better. That's a big change for me. A completely different way for me to look at things.

I like my life. That's something I haven't been able to say very often the last couple of years. Hopefully I'll continue to be able to be with the people I love and pursue the interests I want.

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