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I'm stressed

April 14, 2004 at 10:12 AM

My current and future job(s) are adding up to really stress the shit out of me right now. I'm tired and I'm tired of being tired. I'm couting the days, hours, and minutes till I'm done as a teacher. You couldn't believe how much I hate it and how it makes me feel. Just being here and around these kids drains me of all my energy and any good feelings. (Luckily just the opposite applies when I get home, Reesey and Christina make me feel a bazillion times better.) I still can't believe the way these kids act and think, I can't even imagine acting that way when I was their age. Complete disrespect for everyone and everything. It's appalling to me and even the good kids are so few and far between they can't make up for it. Plus, the few good kids are quick to join the other idiots because they're too lazy to go against the flow. Ugh.

But none of that is new, what is new is the feeling of despair about finding a new job. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want to do. The Whole Foods job sounds pretty good. It doesn't pay great but it seems like it would be very good experience for a very good company to work for. But I'm scared I can't do the work. It's so daunting, what if they want me to come in and contribute right away. I'm not sure I can do that, I'm not sure what I can do. I'm pretty lost right now, at least in the career sense. I'm really getting into web design but I know there's like zero decent jobs for that, especially with no references and no portfolio. Plus I'm not great at the graphics stuff and that goes hand in hand with web design. I don't know. I hope the Whole Foods job works out and I didn't screw up on the phone yesterday. He said he wanted to start the interviews this Friday already, so I guess I'll find out pretty quick what's gonna happen. Keep your fingers crossed.

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Posted on August 06, 2005 at 05:40 PM